Tuesday, December 25, 2012

Merry Christmas!

In the middle of the daily rush, the pull of meetings after meetings, the wrangling of children who don't wish to pose for precious memories, I get this moment of clarity where things open up and reveal that everything is a-ok. Maybe actually really good. I am loved. I have been getting glimpses of it, but today I woke up grateful for the first time in a really long time. It was a good day. I hope you all had a good day too....

Tuesday, December 11, 2012

There is another....

My friend Emily lost her precious daughter at 24 weeks today.

P told me when we were at Radha's ballet class, as he just saw her heartbreaking post on Fa.ce.book.

I watched the little girls twirling in pink and black leotards, and tried to swallow back the tears.

The news always gets me. And always makes me cry. Nearly five years in, and it is all I can do from sobbing every time I hear the words.....

Monday, December 3, 2012

What's in a Name?

There is a bit of traffic to this blog from people Google searching for children named Ronan who have died/are dying. After doing my own search I have found 2 other sites of children named Ronan--one who died of neuroblastoma (rockstarronan) and one Ronan who is dying of Tay Sachs (ourlittleseal). Rockstarronan was followed by Taylor Swift who wrote a song entitled 'Ronan' for the Stand Up to Cancer concert.

Here's the link for YouTube.

 I cried through the whole goddamn thing. It's heartbreaking.

I have always felt Ronan's name was unique when we chose it over 5 years ago. I never thought to hear it would bring up the scene of precious little boys who have died/are dying.

Makes me wonder if there was a reason he was supposed to be named that....