Wednesday, September 14, 2011

Boys Vs. Girls

I start twice a week monitoring next week. 6 weeks until D-day. And I am beginning to really start to feel what bringing this baby home will mean.

The beautiful thing about bringing the girl home after we lost Ronan was that she was a girl. I prayed when I got pregnant again that it wasn't a boy, because I was worried about the shadow of a son after losing a son. I didn't know if there would be comparisons, or a deeper guilt because his brother was not here.

I worry about that now. Is it logical? I don't really know....

For those of you who brought a baby home that was the same sex as the one you lost---was it tougher, do you think? Or am I just overanalyzing everything now?